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Sunday, 20 October 2013

She said “Thank You”?! She shouldn’t!

So yesterday I had some personal matters to be settled in Shah Alam. Since I was there, I brought umi to a hijab boutique with an excuse I’m looking for mine. Lol. Tipu sunat takpe =P 

Truthfully. That was the first time I imagined myself as a career lady. Though it wasn’t a bling bling high class hijab, we never bought hijabs from boutiques with names before. Being the one who helped her matched make the hijabs, brought them to the counter to pay and knowing that I will pay all these myself made me felt very happy. I didn’t know why I only felt this yesterday. It wasn’t the first time I spent my money for her but…. I just couldn’t describe it. I felt super satisfied! 

Ok, so I bought her two hijabs from the boutique. But this wasn’t the reason I wrote this. 

It was the words that came out from her mouth. At home, she thanked me for buying her the hijabs. “Thank you belikan umi tudung”. What?! MasyaAllah umi, she shouldn’t say that at all *cried inside*. That was just a verryyyy small gift and even so, it couldn’t replace all the things you’ve done for me. Gave birth to me, raised me wonderfully, protected me from any harm and cut as well as spent all the money and time for my happiness. It will never be unpaid. Forever. Huhu.

And I'm sure all of you will agree that, we wouldn’t lose anything if we give or spend for our parents. In fact, we’ll gain more ‘rezeki’ InsyaAllah. 

Until now, take care readers =)

Monday, 14 October 2013

Where I Decided to Put My Feet On and Why

I knew GLAM (Green Leaders Academy Malaysia) through my senior, Farouk Harun. Like any other normal people, being approached to join business was something I hesitated the most although i wanted to be a businesswoman so bad since I was a child. I was afraid to take the risks. I kept telling myself, “what if the business I joined was not successful”, “what if I failed to succeed” and blah, blah, blah…. But it was Farouk who approached me. One of the persons I admired and respected for his characters ever since at Macquarie University. I told myself, if Farouk could see the potentials and he already achieved something in this business, then it must be a good and trusted business. However, I did not join straight away *still finding myself other reasons to join*. Thus, I decided to try their BBplus collagen because I was bombarded by pimples at that time. Well, severe ones for me as I did not have this kind of problem before! Tried lots of supplements and products but TETTT! none of them work best (will make an entry about this soon). I tried BBplus to examine whether it was effective or not because I did not want to sell products that were not good merely to get people money. 

I wanted to help others and more importantly, to help my own family. So yeah, that was the main reason actually. It’s not that I’m a mercenary person, but I really wanted to change my family’s fortune. I wanted to be well prepared and able to give if umi, abah, tok, opah, angah and harith sick one day. I did not want to go through the same pain when I was not able to do anything when umi was diagnosed to a colon and liver cancer in 2006 and 2009. I remembered when we heard the doctor said that the operation could only promised a 50-50 chance. It was only few months before my SPM, can you imagine what I went through? It was not easy for me really, but I faked a smile and laughed to hide my pain. I wanted to shower angah and harith with branded clothes, pants and things they wanted because we could not get them like our friends could. Nonetheless, we did not feel angry for that. That was our ‘rezeki’ at that time and we were thankful for that. I just wanted to see their happy face if I could give them more. That’s all. I too longed to take my parents dine in a luxurious restaurants because I knew their sacrifice for me is abundance. Having dinner at tok’s house every evening was the only perfect meal they had every day. The rest was biscuits, breads or starved in order to save money to take us to eat outside on the weekends, paying bills, buying tok’s groceries plus our stuffs and pocket money. They did not have extra for them. I knew. Yet, I never heard they complained. 

These are the real reasons why I decided to choose this road to crawl, walk and run. I have already started walking and I will never look back. I believe in GLAM because they did not leave me walk and run alone. Leaders, classes and seminars were there to guide each step I’m taking. Alhamdulillah, thank you Allah for introducing me to this team. 

*Pedulikan apa orang nak cakap, they do not know my intention and what I had gone through. First step dah jalan so just do it!